Thy Will Be Done

So, this week continues to be challenging. I woke up this morning feeling sick, as usual. I was trying super hard to get the courage to stand up so I could go make myself some ginger tea, but I just couldn't do it. I was too scared I would throw up if I stood up.

Then I got a phone call. Ignored it, figured they'd leave a voicemail.

Then they texted me. Turns out it was my Visiting Teachers from church! I had totally forgotten that they were coming over. They were in the lobby just waiting for me to give them my apartment number.

I had no choice but to get up.

It was uncomfortable, but somehow I walked through the dizzy cloud I was feeling and made some tea, and sat on the couch.

They arrived, and thank goodness they did.

Sure, I almost threw up when they were here, but luckily these ladies have "been there, done that" so they weren't all grossed out by me.

They taught me a very important lesson, one I've been needing to hear.

When Jesus suffered for our sins in Gethsemane, He called out to His father in pain. He asked for that cup to pass from Him.

Then, however, He said, "Not my will, but thine be done."

It occurred to me that I've been asking God to let this cup pass from me, but not accepting that His will is what needs to be done. I have had a hard time accepting that.

We will go through challenges. We're supposed to. And God's not going to take them away all the time. He WILL, however, help us through them, if we let Him.

As scary as it is, I'm giving up my will. My stubborn, hard-headed, determined will, and letting God take it from here.